Thank you everyone!
I thought instead of trying to answer all of the comments individually I would just thank you all at once. Everyone has been so supportive about this whole thing and I really do appreciate it.
I am not beating myself up. I figured it wasn't worth killing myself over. The cigarettes haven't killed me in 40 years, maybe they won't for another 40! lol I am actually very healthy to be a smoker. When I was at the doctor to get the prescription everything checked out great. My blood pressure is perfect and everything else was good. I need to loose about 20 pounds but other than that I'm good and I feel good. I did cut my smoking down during this so I'm just going to try to keep it that way.
I want to say that I really enjoy being here on Vox every day. I've made so many good friends here. I love that I can write about whatever I want to and be open and honest about stuff and I am like a kid waiting to read the comments from everyone. I also love reading everyone else's posts and commenting back to you. Thank you all so much for being my friends.