The Bad Dream is Over
It really hit me today that I am going to work full time. I know it sounds silly probably, but I have been without hope for so long and I suddenly have it again. I actually spent time thinking about some of the things that I have wanted to buy for so long and realizing that I can actually buy them now. Nothing extravagant, just simple things like towels. Every time I do laundry I am disgusted with how terrible my towels look. They are clean but they are also very old and so ragged looking. To have a nice fresh new set of pretty colored towels would make me so happy you cannot imagine. I want to buy the girls a nice comforter set with matching sheets and pillow cases and a big stuffed animal to lay in the middle of it. Again, nothing extravagant, just fresh and new.
I have kind of been tip toeing around all of this as I have gone through the motions and today it finally felt real. I broke down and cried hard. It’s like I’m waking up from a very long bad dream. It finally feels safe to truly be excited.