I am finally experiencing the feeling of winding down. Between the uproar of having the girls this past year and all the drama associated with their leaving, and starting the new job, I felt like I was spinning out of control for a time. I took yesterday off from work and am closing tonight so I don’t have to be in until 3:00 today. It’s given me some much needed time to wind down and I finally feel like I can breathe again.
I had a long talk with the girls father last night and I think I made him realize how much they need him to have it together and take care of them. As I said before, I believe everything happens for a reason and I believe this move was for the best for everyone involved. I told him that all of the acting out that they did here was for no other reason than because they missed him so much. Children need their parents no matter what. I’m praying that everything works out for them.
In the mean time, I’m settling back into my life. I landed on my feet after all this with a good full time job and my nice little home back to myself and I am happy. I missed my alone time. I need it to keep my sanity. I learned a lot going through this and I hope I never forget it all. God stopped us from being able to have children by a certain age for a reason. We just aren’t cut out for it after a while. We aren’t meant to be raising children in our 50’s.