Wimp
Well I wimped out on the Chantix. I was having bad heart palpitations so I quit taking it and yes I am back to smoking. Oh well. I'll try again another way another day. I'm not going to beat myself up about it and feel bad. I'm still doing a lot of other stuff to improve my life.
I have been working like crazy and coming home in the evening and cutting grass. I have probably an acre and a half of yard to cut and it had gotten probably three feet high, so it takes a little bit each day to get it done. It's great exercise though because I have hills in the yard. My brother keeps saying I need to get a riding lawn mower and I keep saying no, I need the exercise.
I went and had all my hair cut off the other day. I have had long hair to my waist half of my life and it is very thick. It's way too much work and very hot. I've had it cut little bits at a time over the last year. Every time I would try to get it cut the beautician would say, "Well let's just cut this much off and see how you like it." I would agree and get home and wish I had cut more. The other day I walked in and said "Please cut it short." So she did and I absolutely love it. I so wish I had done this years ago. It is so much cooler and so much easier to deal with. I have also had tons of compliments about it which is great for my self confidence. I needed a boost.
I was also told that I made a huge donation to whatever they are doing with the hair for the oil spill. I'm so glad I could help!
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It's not easy. I had a chest infection when I gave it away which helped. I was still surprised that it finished up being as easy as it was when I finally managed it. Keep trying.
May 25, 2010 at 11:39 pm
The question needs to be asked….do you enjoy the smokes you have? Is it a genuine habit, or do you choose to smoke? I used to have the same issues with my smoking, which has never climbed to the 'pack-a-day' habit stage. Suffice to say, I know it's bad for me, but so is living in a polluted city, or spraying the grass with Dicamba-based weedicide or even driving to work in peak hour traffic. Thing is, I enjoy the 3 or 4 smokes I have now. I'm too busy working during the day to bother breaking for a smoke, but when I do, I enjoy what I have. If you enjoy what you have, then why beat yourself up? We all die sometime. I'm bound & declared to go happy in the knowledge that I did what I wanted to do, not what others told me I shouldn't do.
May 26, 2010 at 2:49 am
Congratulations on the new hair cut! I bet it feels and looks terrific! Much better for all that hot mowing you are doing.
May 26, 2010 at 3:11 am
Perhaps you will get so busy between work, exercising and cutting the grass that you won't have time to smoke….. 🙂 We are the only people in our little neighbourhood with a push mower – everyone else has those weed whacker things. I had waist length hair until I was 17 when I went in and asked to have it all cut off. The hairdresser talked me into only going half way and when I got home I was sorry… I went back the next week and got it cut in a boy cut – very, very short. I loved it – so much less work when everyone else was blow drying and teasing theirs.
May 26, 2010 at 3:15 am
Don't feel bad about the Chantix. Pharmaceuticals can be worse than the disease sometimes. That's great about your haircut! I bet it's adorable.
May 26, 2010 at 1:59 pm
New haircuts are so refreshing, aren't they? I love my short hair. Great news about donating to the oil spill cause, my hairdresser has the same thing going on in her salon.
No worries about the smokes, it's a process. Take a break for some reflection. The answer will arrive when it's time.
May 26, 2010 at 5:17 pm
Ditto. Hear me out; you know I take psychiatric meds (and I have no problem saying that publicly) and I'll say it as many times as I figure I need to: you don't have to put up with side effects that threaten your health. It is not worth threatening your health another way even if you are taking the pills to stop a unhealthy habit. It just doesn't make sense, y'know?I perceive it still bothers you but I ask that you also tell yourself beating an unhealthy habit isn't worth a risk on your health.I'm totally serious. One med I took, I was dying on. It took a lot of arm-twisting with support from other family members to compel the doctor to allow me to stop taking it.
May 26, 2010 at 6:13 pm
I've heard that some people just cannot tolerate Chantix. Hang in there.
May 26, 2010 at 8:35 pm
When I got my long hair cut off the first time, it felt like my head was floating around like a balloon on a string.
May 28, 2010 at 4:54 pm
Thanks for the advice Katiebell. I have made great strides towards improving my life in other ways. I think it will come in time. The busier I get again, the better I do with it anyway. I've felt funny with mine cut off too. I laughed at myself yesterday when I was getting dressed. I put my shirt on and reached back to pull my hair out of it like I've always had to do and it wasn't there. It was funny.
May 28, 2010 at 5:33 pm
You cut your hair! Wow. I did that once. And found out that I don't have the time to style short hair–mine is so crazy that it needs the length to weigh it down a bit! I loved the way it looked when I had time to do it, but I guess this just isn't the season for me! Maybe when I'm older…(like life is really going to calm down, right?) Or maybe I'll just shave my head completely…
May 28, 2010 at 7:45 pm
I kept mine long all those years for the exact same reason. The weight of it kept it tame. It did it's own thing otherwise and it was real silky so I couldn't do anything with it. It's changed though over the last short few years. It's got body and curl that it never had and it works great short. I absolutely love it. I wash it and blow dry it with a round brush and that's it. It only takes about five minutes to dry it because it's short. It's very thick so it had just gotten unbearably hot and irritating. Working for this accountant, I just wanted it to look neat and orderly and it does now. I'm very happy I did it.
May 28, 2010 at 8:32 pm
I'd love to see pictures sometime!
May 28, 2010 at 9:54 pm